Truth. Love. Freedom.

“The Ones who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones that do.”

- Unknown

 

If it is not clear why those three words have attracted you to read this, your life mustn’t be clear at all.

Love is all that is, to see the real love one must live in truth. When Love is achieved, we are free…

 

 

 

We are human beings. We don’t see ourselves for what we really are, the stardust offspring of the universe. We mainly see ourselves for who we have been, and who we hope to be. We are more powerful, beautiful, magical then we ever know. The roots go deeper than we are ever told. The rabbit hole will never ever end. So lets go down as deep as we can, as deep as we want, as deep as we believe.

Take of the shackles chained to your feet by the conditioning of reality, because reality makes as much sense as your thoughts and dreams, change your thoughts ,change your dreams, and you change reality.

Because the truth is, there are many truths along the horizon. And so because one person truth differs to another persons, if they both believe whole heartedly and not out of fear like the religions or governments. Then they are both right.

 

 

Everyone will tell the truth eventually, our hearts will not take the lying for much longer. We can front with the smiles, the anger, the defense mechanisms. In the end what we are protecting against is what that will heal us. And what we are trapping inside what that will destroy us.

Let it go, all your fear ridden thinking, trust in me, trust in life. Do not be scared to take my hand and travel places unknown to your existence. We already know them you just forgot how to trust in them. The mystery is the most beautiful place on earth. The leap into it is the happiest and most fulfilling.

What you already believe cannot be truth unless you are willing to question it

I have questioned everything until there is no more need because the destination no longer provides me with satisfaction. The journey has filled in its shoes.

Do not believe anyone who tells you that their way is the only way. Because they don’t even believe it themselves. They never will either.

 

 

When we truly speak of truth, it is not in abstinence, it is not in following laws, codes of conduct or rules. God never written any rules for us to follow. He gave us everything we need inside of us, and it is the same compass for everyone. Our heart. Which connects us all.

We can see it when we look up in the night sky, each individual star is each of us. The empty spaces in between are boundaries we have created in our illusions. We are empty at the moment, but i believe we will all come together because we are all so beautiful and made of love that we are attracted to it even if we lie to ourselves we are not.

So there is only one message, it is the same written in different words.

I Love you, So let me love you.

 

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Kill Them All

We will rise from the ashes never to look back at the weak and evil hearted.

-C.M

 

Let it spread like wildfire through your mind, heart and soul. Death is nothing more than an illusion, the fear of death is weakness creeping through the cracks of your faith.

The chair you are sitting so comfortably on, the feeling you get when you go to work every morning, the sound of the birds as they sing into the rising sun. Everything is made of the same. We just choose to see it differently. In this life we are limited by our minds, but i assure you our hearts have no limits. Everything is of the same cloth.

 

 

 

Everything but the truth will come to an abrupt end, and as for the ignorant, the blissful end will be one of nightmares created by their own weakness.

In my eyes weakness has no difference to evil. A man who takes ones life deserves just the same as one who is too scared to protect the lives of the innocent.

Weakness is far from innocence. A sword can do no harm to a man who does not fear death, the body is just another figment of our imagination. It will never cut through our souls. A for the weak, and the fearful a sword is not even need to destroy their existence, a mere word is sufficient enough to do so. What they live for is fake, therefor they do not live at all, they are simply dying. Let them be.

 

 

 

Forget the labels that have been engraved onto our hearts. Everyone that has meaning in our lives our different forms of ourselves. If they do not choose love as their path than it is not our responsibility to stay, when we move on only then shall they see the path through their destruction.

We are infinite, there is no bars to which our imagination can take us. Our dreams are just as true as reality. Our emotions are just as powerful as our actions, our Love is the strongest force in existence.

It is not clear now what we have to do?

Love. that is it. Whichever dimension you are reading this from, which ever house, palace or prison. Know that it was not by accident these words are being printed onto your mind. If i was never ever born you would still be reading the same thing whether in the for of words photos actions or anything. It will give you the same meaning. To find true purpose in life. Live with me forever as one. Do not let the fears of others dictate your path, you are already where you need to be. You already have what you need. You already are what are suppose to be.

Let life take you on this adventures into the unknown, into the mystery, into love. Flow and be one with it every step of the way, in everything you do. Feel one with the universe. You are under the watchful eye of the maker, creator and architect. Yourself.

 

In the Dark

Stand up for what you believe in, even if it means standing alone

- Unknown

 

 

I create the road as i travel, I only choose to see this moment i am standing in, there is so much energy and light in this moment, on this road.

When I look ahead  there is darkness and when I look behind there is darkness too. Yet in this moment, on this road, I feel so right. Standing here walking alone making each step come to life.

In consciousness, darkness is ever so present. It is what feeds our fears and make us loose ourselves to the illusion. There is no destination on the path to happiness, there is only where you stand and choosing to be happy as you are.

Understand this, you have what you are, and you are what you need. There can be no more.

 

In all battles fought, it is usually the one with the most numbers, the most firepower and the one who induces the most fear that is the favorite to be victorious. But let me tell you this, the one who truly wins is the one with no fear, who didn’t come to fight but stands up for his cause till the end.

How do you kill a man who does not fear death?

You cannot ,even if you take away his life, you will never win.  There is no satisfaction, if he fights back, yes he has something loose. But if he doesn’t you cannot take away anything from him.

What I am standing for is the truth, what i am standing as is Love.

It has been a long road, but i am already at my destination. The truth. With the truth nothing feels wrong. There can be no worser consequences than lying to myself. So take the risk with me, and speak the truth. Through you thoughts, your words and your actions. With the truth who ever is opposing cannot win, because there is no force in numbers or fear that can defeat what is truth.

When the truth is revealed, those who have been hiding behind fear will oppose. Those who have been living in denial will reject it. They will put you down and try to suppress you. Do not listen, do not resist. Just follow your heart and leave them behind.

 

 

 

 

Everything is one, we are all connected. What connects us is truth and love. Where we find it is in our hearts. The people who are sick deny their hearts and we will know only when we expose the truth because they are the first ones to objectify. Because in everyones heart, it is the same truth we hear, but we do not listen, so the lies have separated us.

This is your chance to follow your heart. Not the television, not the politicians, not the priest, messiahs or holy men. But what is deep inside us all. The truth. You don’t have to live the lie any longer my brothers and sisters. The awakening is coming. People will see the truth but choose to die with their lies. Do not be one of them. We will make it to create from the destruction, we will rise through the ashes and shine for all of time and space.

There is no need to fear the threats of the sick, life will take care of us, I give you my word. There is no heaven, there is no hell. There is only now. You are NEVER alone with truth, I am always with you. I will give my last breath defending and spreading the love with you. When the whole world is against you, you will know when you have to make your choice. To live truly with eyes wide open. Or continue to die blindly.

My Message

Our mind gets too carried away at times,

Life is beautiful it always is. The good the bad the same.

Writing my blog i believe in sharing love with all of you, i believe in questioning the whole purpose to which we continue breathing senselessly, But the most important factor i forget moment to moment is the trust i have created through my words.

It is not important who reads this, what they take out of it or what they do with it.

It only matters that at this moment writing the words from my heart, i chose them willing and on my own, because i believe whole heartedly my existence has meaning, and i am sharing that meaning with all who is willing to accept.

Our life the physical and the spiritual is our own representation of who we are. Everyone who has meaning to us good or bad is a part of ourselves manifesting through our reality.

It is a hard concept isn’t it? Why is it so hard to believe in something out of normality because normality itself is ridiculous and senseless. We allow ourselves to believe and trust in that senselessness day to day without question so why is it so hard to believe in this, in me, in you, in us.

Together we are all connected, drawn to each other by the physical and emotional. We have to believe that nothing is coincidence and nothing in life happens without our consent. It is true, you reading this right this moment is not by an accidental click of your mouse. It is not because of the interest you have in my life nor the interest you have in reading my blog, whether you stumble on this by accident or not best believe there are no accidents.

The fact that you have read up to this point proves that your consciousness is pleading with you to expand itself. So trust me and accept everything i write without judgement or resistance.

We are all super heroes. We all are the chosen ones, we, all together have it in us to save the world and our universe. We have the ability in us to make every coming moment an ecstasy with infinite possibilities.

 

No one is ever born evil. The hate we spread in our lives is the hate we harbor for ourselves. So stop the hate, lets improve as one. There is no past there is no future. There is only now, this moment which lasts for all of existence and this is the only moment we have to change what is wrong. Only in this moment shall we feel complete. The past is history the future is a beautiful mystery.

 

 

There is way you can ever prove what i am saying is right or a lie. There is only trust that meaning has brought you here and meaning wants the best of all us. So in my meaning and purpose shall i prove to you fear is the absence of trust. With trust there is no need to live in fear, there is no need to live with hate. With trust, perfection and flaws no longer exist. Only love.

So trust, whether in me, my words yourself  or this life. Be sure that there are no right or wrong choices, it is what it is and cannot be anything else.

Do not strive for perfection, but view this moment as perfect. It was meant to be, share the love always and infinitely. You can keep nothing in this life, but you grow everything in this moment. So grow with me as one. Love with me as one. Be with me as one. You might not have trust in life, but know that life has its trust in you.

Life does not give what you want, life gives you what you are

- Crazy Monkey

Without Me

Just got back

Here goes nothing.

My heart and mind are no slave to time and space.

It is destined in my faith to seek nothing but oneness with life.

 

 

The words that i write are sang beautifully in my heart and is constantly echoing through my spirit. I will not hold it in any longer or nothing back from your life because it is with in this moment, while you are reading this that you will be completely honest through my words.

I have searched for this control my entire existence believing it is the key to complete happiness, happiness being the intended state of living. We all have many schools of thoughts to reach our designated nirvana but finally i have understood what it is like, not to achieve happiness. But to stop hiding it.

Yes, naturally. We are all born happy. Whether into your mother warm embrace or right inside the darkest caves, the light we came from still shines within us. Until now.

I have realized all that I desired and longed for in life, is not to bring happiness to me. But to bring my happiness to them. To you, i want it for you. In every way possible. I may not have met you, we may not have talked. i might have even rubbed you the wrong way once or twice. But right now as this registers, i deeply and honestly say love you. You.

I have wanted to become many roles in life, i always hoped it would make the pain worth it.

I wanted to be a fighter to mend my cowardliness, i have wanted to be a player to mend my broken heart.

 

I became a fighter and it brought me pain indescribable. I became a player and it brought me shame unseen of.

 

Now, I am a warrior and fight to show the cowardly the righteous way,

Now I am a lover and i love to bring your heads above the clouds, and your feet planted firmly on the ground.

Do you not see happiness is not in what you do, but who you do it for?

I have just returned back realizing the bubble everyone is choosing to die in, you do not see the world like I do, it is so beautiful. Constantly, always.

I have lived my life not for love, but with love always. It has brought me here. Writing this, feeling at peace with the whole of existence. The planets the stars and every breath, dream and imagination ever conceived. I can feel it. i chose too.

Theres is nothing i need to prove to myself by pleasing you. My self is already is pleased and i am sharing it with you.

 

 

I have loved you, always have. You, you reading this, can you not feel it? Can you not feel i want to give you every ounce of my body and heart. Whatever i can do physically, spiritually or verbally  to share my love with you, i will. There is no boundaries of race, sex or religion. It is just at the heart of it all where i meet you inside. Where there is no labels or cloths to mask our fears. The same cloth and labels that covers our weaknesses covers our greatest strength. Love.

The holy men, the masters and the politicians all have something to say that was and has been said over and over until the essence of it is lost in translation. Even if it was truth once you cannot feel it any more.

I have something they will never be able to possess. It is something i do not ask for anything in return. I cannot even give it to you because it is already yours and you just have to open your eyes to be one with it.

That is the freedom to love. Everything and anything without the boundaries of our own ego and pride. Our ability to love without possession and rules.

It is our ability to love without fear.

The fear that is eating us, the fear that is suffocating us. The fear that is killing us.

I have no fear anymore. Whether i have lost you once before, whether it was my fault or yours. You will still come back to me. Whether I haven’t even met you and you are sick of these words till you vomit them out of your system. I will see you again. I have no fear of loosing you. I will never loose you. Because i didn’t find you, we were already one,

ALL OF US.

 

You are always in my radar of love. No matter how far away. How many others manage to possess temporarily. I will be here waiting. Forever loving and living. There is no lies with me. There is no silences. There will only be mystery and love. For no matter how many fishes in the sea, it feels so empty without me.

 

love.

Gravitating Addiction

It has been said time and time again, humans naturally lean towards happiness.

We live in unnatural time of existence, where lives are represented through screens and status and power are valued well above love. That statement exist in our generation anymore. Yes we all have been in the light, we all have found the path, the door out of the darkness. How many of us have stayed there? Not many.

Why, because in this an unnatural moment of living, the darkness is what comforts us more than the light. Sick, i know but how much are you willing to see the truth. Without their sympathy, how much of what has happened would be worth anything? The darkness is calming, the sadness is comforting, the hurt is addictive.

That why we fall back into it time and time again. We know we are in control of our suffering, but when we do not have it, the light scares us because we don’t know how long it will last for. It is almost safer, because we know the outcome of the darkness, it is the easier option. It feeds into our egos,build our walls and destruct our hearts.

You might believe what is achieving happiness without scars? how will people know the struggles? how will people know the hardship. Yes scars heal, but we do not need to keep reopening them for the sake of others. Scars heal, it is something great, it is something beautiful do not think revealing them will make us any stronger, do not think people will treat us any kinder. No our scars are there forever, we do not need to find comfort in them.

I have stopped bringing up the horrors i have faced, i have stopped using it as a defense mechanism. My suffering cannot compare to yours or anyone. Why do we choose to believe that the more someone has been through the wiser he is. In fact it is most of the time the complete opposite. They are dumber, more stupid for letting their suffering continue, too weak to give it up.

Do not fall in the quicksand. You will never win. Smile despite what you have been faced with. Suffering is not a competition and neither is happiness. They are actions we choose to share. So only share the love, there is no need to remind yourself of the hurt, it does not make you stronger despite what we all believe.

There are good and bad moments and always will be. But we choose how fast we want to dwell, we choose when we want to move on. Whether it is with in a second or a thousand years, it makes no difference to who you are, to what people feel for you. Do not delay love, do not delay forgiveness. Forgive yourself, forgive others, most importantly forgive life. Learn to love during the storm, learn to love during the sun shine. And love is always with you. It is an innate ability, not a feeling.

Peace. Always, so excited to go back home in 2 weeks. Thought id write this to show you. Moving on is up to us, scars of the heart can heal immediately, or never at all. It is your choice. May love be with you through all your days. xx

Some people are so poor, all they have is money

What can make man live forever. What can make man loose his soul.

The answer is not any form of paper or stone. It does not sparkle in the light or glow in the dark. There are no numbers on it, there are no faces. There is no favorites, there is no biases. It is equal among all, and applies to all.

Is it what drives us the most, it is what scares us the most.

What is something you would give all you own for? think carefully. What is something that will make you sacrifice it all. There are two answers to this question. Choose wisely. I will go throughout the first, and then the right answer.

Death

Yes, death. The kryptonite of the weak. The rich, the famous, the powerful. They will all bow down and kiss the feet of death. Because in death, all that gives them purpose is gone, all that makes them matter ceases to exist. They have sacrificed all for nothing. You hold a gun to the head of the richest man in the world, what will he offer you for his life? You hold a knife to the throat of the most powerful man in the world. What is he willing to give up for exchange of it.

The fear of death is a cancer, it is slowly killing. Death is not the problem, dying is. Death is never an end, we cannot end. But dying is the torture. When we resist death, it comes faster, we die harder.

We resist a lot of death by putting are hopes and fears into one basket. Religion gives us the illusion of ever lasting nirvana, it is why we cling to it so much. To deny death is the end, but we are still dying. That belief of a paradise in the clouds is what is killing us. Our heart knows it does not exist, but we fight, and fight until there is no more life in us. This is why death is one of the things which hold so much value, everything must revolve around it. You give yourself time limits and if you don’t achieve it is your excuse to stop living. To give up, it is not the truth. Death does not mean our time is up, it means it is time to move on, into the mystery. You cover your fears by fighting it, don’t place your fears in someone else words. That cannot be right, it has to be your own.

There is nothing to fear, if it was a different word would you feel better, lets call it transition. To the next journey, and you can trust there will be one.

So what then is the most valued currency. What will is worth much more to us then our own lives.

Love

Yes, Love. Infinite, limitless mystery and trust. Something I value much more than death. Something that scares me more to loose than my own life.

Because without love, life is empty, death is meaningless. My ability to Love i would never trade for anything, not all the riches in the world, or all the women or all the power. Because when you strip me naked and take every inch of me. My love will still remain, i will never run out as long as my heart beats.

You can be stranded with no food or water, beaten to a bloody pulp and left for dead. But love is always there till the end of which there is no end. As long as that image, that thought that memory passes through your mind your heart will respond. It is always there in the darkest of places you will always have that ability. But you must learn to grow it, nurture it and practice.

No one is EVER responsible for your happiness but your self.

Isn’t it sad  we humans live by the principle that only when good things happen we can feel good, and vice versa. How did it ever get like this? i wonder. We are sick, and love is the only medicine. It is possible to smile through the rain, it is possible to smile through the pain. With love it is all possible.

Take my hand, and we can choose to never feel poor again. Walk with me, and death is nothing but a stop over on our journey.

Love with me and you will never be empty again.

Captain

“The strength is returning to my heart and the peace is creeping back into my soul.”  - C.M

I can feel it again, it has been awhile. The past couple of months have been a tough one. Emotionally draining and spiritually lost. My wandering is coming to an end. I feel the warmth of trust again. My trust in life, my trust in myself.

We have a tendency to strive for perfection. In whatever field our ego feeds off, we want to be the most flawless. The most pristine. It is not wrong, only when it doesn’t exist shall it be harmful to our soul. How do we know if it doesn’t exist? When our need for perfection exceeds the moment. This very moment you can be perfect, but when you strive for perfection in future fantasies, or past failures. That is when we suffer. Deep Deep suffering.

You find yourself, only in the moment. No where else are you existing. No where else but now should you be concerned about. Now and only now time stands still. Open your eyes to the beauty of here and now. Where ever you are sitting and reading this from, it is beautiful. Be it a forrest or a cage. Where there is darkness, just as much light can come from it. Choose who you want to be, let go of the past failures and the future pressures. You have it in in you to be as beautiful as you want to be right now, as strong as love.

I use to wonder if striving for perfection was just an armor, in certain ways it is. But it is how you design your armor that matters.

The walls of my castle are dense, strong, durable. But they bright with color, filled with life, Flowers growing from every crack. The gates are open to all who is love and love alone. Come in and drink my water, replenish yourself with all that i have. But why are there walls then?

To protect, from what? from myself. To protect the people i love from myself. To control within the walls my greed, envy, lust, all that ceases to love. Because every castle has a prison. That is where i hold my demons. So they don’t escape the castle wall.

The past month, i let my walls down. I burnt them to the ground. I thought i could handle it. I didn’t. My mind, heart and body was at war with each other. It got to the point i became sick as dog for weeks on end, i couldn’t have and interaction with the ones i love, i couldn’t even have sex on a couple of occasions because my body didn’t let me (Sorry to the ladies). I was looking to hurt someone every night, just to fill the confusion with hatred. Life is funny. I tortured myself for inadequacy, i wondered what i did wrong. I re accessed everything and now, i am on the good path. Love and love only. No more possession, no more trying to own my friends, my lovers, my self. It is all free. ALL of it. Take it from me, because at the end of the day. You will take nothing with you. So share it. And this is what i am doing now, sharing it with all of you.

 

I am the captain of my ship, i will let you on it. As many as i can hold, we will cruise the still waters together, we will sail rough seas hand in hand. The wind will be our compass, and we paint our map as we go. We stay still to admire each and every marking for as long as we please. We will drop souls off, and pick new ones up along the journey. We will guide the lost and we will build the weak. We will sing during the storm and we will cry into the  horizon. Our tears shall form the waters we sail on. There are no pictures of our destination, the destination is here in the moment. No matter where we are, we are painting one. The love that is in our hearts, shall be our dining. The appreciation for one another will keep us entertained. When it is our time to leave, we will sink gracefully into the sunset.

Once the night settles, there is no more confusion, only mystery.

Silhouette Seduction

Its  funny the way us as beings define love. Its even more funny how we really feel about it.

Our definition a lot of the time is expressed solely to numb the confusion. It is in justifying all, that gives us hope so we can function another moment. as what?

who knows.

I was put on this earth, cliche as it sounds. To question all that is good, and all that is bad. And feel absolutely the same about both, why? because it is an empty truth that in our moments of sorrow we acknowledge something needs to be fixed, it is in our moments of joy where we feel that everything is right and there is no need to continue to question. It is a common belief that when things are good continue what your doing and things can only get better. i do not see it. I wish it was true.

My mind, heart and body are very distant from one another but deeply connected. When there is something wrong in my heart and mind, my body will show it & vice versa. It is the same for ALL of us. When we have intercourse and interaction with people. If something is wrong, our bodies will not allow us  to continue. The other week while attempting to make love to a physically beautiful lover, i sensed a deep emptiness inside my heart and mind because i was hurting i didn’t own her. My body did not allow me to please her. Our hearts weren’t in sync, guilt and ego forced me to do the impossible. It resulted in a devastated fashion that destroyed my spirit.

The word faithful is a common theme in relationships. But faithful to who? Do we ever ask ourselves that. Who are we faithful to?

Theories run through my mind of how one man who is unfaithful is happier than a man who is scared to be unfaithful. Temptation is never sin. temptation is natural course of life, when we fight it, then it becomes sin.

Fighting with life, is like killing a man that invites you to take his heart beat away. There is no joy in doing so.

When our hearts yearn for what our ‘partners’ cannot give. Is it so wrong to ask for more? I have loved a handful of people, i am in love with the idea of being back in love. But it is an empty shadow that burns. It is like the fire. When we get too close, it burns. But we are all attracted to it’s glow.

I go through all the friends and women i can wonder of. They ALL have hurt me the same way. Just in that moment though, always remember everyone is different, each and everyone. I do not mean from one another. I mean from themselves in the moment.

In the moment i can be your friend, in the moment i can be your enemy. But in this moment i am only the friend again.

The idea of being in love is very tempting. My heart, mind and body craves it. I will admit that. To not be able to smell enough of someones, taste enough of someone, share enough with someone. But it is a thirst that will never be quenched. Because it is only in the moment that in sync, In a different circumstance, all is lost.

I have to be more than honest with my blog, not with my readers. With my blog. Because it is a part of me i broke off to share with you. And if that part is not in sync with the rest of me, you will be enjoying something that is empty and warped, I will spare titles. But labels help you understand

My soulmate is a married woman, i am in love with idea of being in love with a physically beautiful lady of mine, i have said the words I love you in order to be possessed, and to satisfy my impulse. I am attracted to the idea of homosexuality as an escape from my rapidly rising bed count. My ego thrives of that number, my soul burns from it. Sex  has become so warped it is like a surgical procedure. I am as lost as the moon but as needed as the sun. My mind believes in happy endings but my heart knows there is no such, you are either happy or you are ending.

Honesty is limitless. Its a rabbit hole with no ending. Your idea of the ‘truth’ and mine is a world of difference. Honesty the ability to reveal the truth no matter which part of you is saying it. That being said, when you told you mum you hate her in a fit of rage, it was the truth. When you told your wife you cheated on you’ll love her and her at your wedding, that was the truth. Now i am telling you this, sit back re-access the people in your lives, and tell them in this moment what you want to say but didn’t, couldn’t or said wrongly in the past. It is history.

The truth to your heart, is not the same as truth to your mind and to your soul. If it was decisions would be too simpler. Hesitation would not exist.

The confusion i am suffering from has brought out a lot of truths. My heart knows best but my mind  does not trust. My mind fears, my mind is selfish, my mind surviving in the world. it was given.

I have been, a home wrecker, a lover, a torturer, a soldier, a tortured boy, abuser, abusive, abused, a faggot, a bitch, a slut, an sex addict, a user, a criminal, a savior, a prophet, a loner, a friend, a philosopher, a suicidal person, a manic depressive, the pill popper, the happiest man in the world, a sex god, a pig, a dog, a back stabber, a killer, a coward, a failure, a winner, a psychopath, a drug dealer, an asshole, a buddhist, a christian, a muslim, a terrorist, a blessing, a kiss, a good fuck, a short fuck, fucked up, a father, a cheater, a student, a fighter, a thug, a brother, a problem, the solution, a soulmate, a distraction, a boy toy, an angel and just a stranger.

But it is in this moment, I am in control.

I have been all that but in this moment my slate is wiped clean, and judge me only for what i am to you now.

Isn’t it beautiful, to question sadness and happiness.

No matter how much good is in one person, there is evil to balance. Ask yourself, why you are happy or not. Whether you give yourself the real reason or just an excuse in the hopes it will last. Nothing lasts, everything changes, whether it changes back or not be sure that it was meant to be. Life doesn’t give you the things you ask for. But when you trust in it, it’ll give you something just a wonderful.

Who am I?

I Love You.

Dont Sure

Imagine you, imagine Me.

Imagine who i am to you, be it a friend, friend of a friend, acquaintance, stranger, brother, past lover, we met once, we fought, u don’t like me, we fucked, we danced, we loved, went to school, we got in trouble, we kissed, we cried, we hurt. Whether you’ve known me all my life, a good part of my life, or just in this moment.

Imagine. that all those reasons brought you up to this point, reading my blog, this article. Time and space does not apply here. But in this moment as my words flow through your conscious mind you are reading, and regardless or whether you know me or not. The words keep coming, they keep flowing.

Now imagine this.

I do not exist.

The truth is I don’t, and you cannot prove that i do. You know that you do, because thats the only thing you can be sure, but you cannot prove that i am real. Yes, you go back to the memories, maybe the pictures, maybe you haven’t even seen me and you ask yourself. ‘if you don’t exist’ Who wrote this then?

You did.

You wrote this, your crazy mind invented my existence for so that you can cope with reality. Your crazy mind invented the data of what i sound like, look like, feel like,think like just so it can cope with your existence. 

You try to make sense of the meaning of this life, but you can’t

NO ONE CAN

So you invented me, just to reassure your confusion, just to make you feel safer. Well i am telling you stop making sense, stop trying to feel safe. It is in no mans logic that makes the you find truth. And truth to me is not an explanation, it is not an action or a thought. It is in just doing, and feeling. and existing.

You can be christian, buddhist, muslim, an atheist, a scientist, philosopher, or just don’t give a fuck. You cannot prove. anything you see, experience, or believe in. Because the only thing that exist is you. Everything else is just an application of your mind.

Everyone who has ever hurt you, everyone who has made you smile, laugh, cry, i am the one that will make you make you question.

Can’t you see that your beliefs on life, and what you have to do with it. Is more crazy, more stupid and absolutely pointless compared to mine?

You, wake up everyday. And see a giant rock thats on fire, it is is millions and millions of miles away from you, a billion times bigger and you call it the sun. It is warm and shines light to your world.  You dress up, eat cereal, watch people through a metal box you call the tv. You take a metal rectangular tube with wheels to work everyday. where you look at a screen, write stuff down. just to get paper with numbers on it that is worth so much to you.

And you do this over and over again repeatedly until it is your time to go.

and you think all of that is fucking normal.

So i am here, because you heart knows its not, and now its telling your brain its not. And you who created all that above is creating me. This article, the words that are being ingested into you. That it is not normal.

But heres the thing about life not making sense.

it is OK

Don’t search for meaning, experience. question everything you do. Make this be the turning point of your existence. The world is your gift to me.